January 29, 2015


anytime i take pics of women, they invariably ask 2 things:

if they are thin, they ask if i can photoshop wrinkles.

if they are heavy, they ask if i can hide double chins or wide hips.

when i take their photos, i just see beautiful, real women.  

so the other day i took a photo of myself, full body.  not something i've ever done.

when i saw the photo, i was not traumatized.  i know i'm overweight, but i'm more than that.

and maybe it's because of these women that i can now look at myself and feel ok.

December 10, 2014

historical cleveland builings that i get to work & play in...

The Caxton:  Built in 1903.  It housed graphic arts and printing businesses.  It was declared a Cleveland landmark in 1976.

The Perry Payne Building:  Built in 1888.  The building was named for its owner and his family: it was erected for politician Henry B. Payne, and "Perry" was his wife's maiden name.  It was declared a landmark in 1973.

October 10, 2014

stairway to stardom... i need help

and some jan terri to end this post

October 1, 2014

cassavetes clips...

I don't know why I am so obsessed with Cassavetes and these films. Everyone drinks and smokes, men slap women around, husbands cheat. I wouldn't want to live in this world. But I love the freedom of it all. The creativity. Trying to do something wild and amazing. I don't watch these films and think they are realistic or lifelike. I watch these films for the shocking improvisations, the uncomfortable & strange moments. The tension the actors and the dialog creates. I watch these films in s different way than I do other directors I love (P.T. Anderson, Wes Anderson, old Scorsese films.) I watch a Cassavetes film for him. And for Gene Rowlands, Peter Falk, Ben Gazzara, to see them do wild things. Someone said that John Cassavetes films were like his life. He thrived on chaos and abandoning ego. He also died of cirrhosis of the liver in 1989 at the age of 59 and drank all the way up until he died. So maybe part of me finds these films thrilling, knowing how they were made and knowing the people who made them.


September 5, 2014