i've blogged (and complained) a lot about my lifelong struggle with insomnia. and then my almost decade long use of ambien. i finally stopped taking ambien in 2011. i got a tempurpedic mattress. and i stopped worrying so much about not sleeping.
a bad night's sleep won't kill me. sooner or later i'll fall asleep. so no sense in letting it run my life.
then i joined the gym. i found that i loved swimming & deep water jogging. exercising helped me sleep a little better.
i rented a locker at the gym and stocked it with all my shower stuff, make-up etc... i started going to swim before work, around 6 or 7am most mornings.
i had a few rough nights of sleep, and kept waking up around 3 or 4am, and i'd try to force myself back to sleep. it rarely worked, and if i did fall back asleep i'd wake up feeling crappy.
so i tried something new. the next time i woke up at 3am, i just got out of bed. i did the dishes, hung out with the dogs, and got to the gym when they opened at 5am. i got 45 minutes of swimming and still had time to get breakfast before work.
and that changed my life.
i sleep better some nights. and if i wake up at 3am, there's so much to do! i get the iPad out and draw or read books. i hang out with the dogs. i catch up on chores. i discover new movies. TCM playes some really strange movies at 4am.
yesterday morning i stumbled onto a film that took my breathe away:
insomnia is a gift.