today is bad....like sleestak bad....

today sucks. i had work nightmares and woke up in a full panic attack. had a "talk" with my boss about my missing too much work in january (due to bad back and being incredibly burned out.) talk went well actually, but i am not sure how i am going to get through 10 hours days (starting today.) i am taking tomorrow off entirely for the funeral. my boss was fine with that, as long as i promised not to cry when discussing it with him. i am such a cry baby....

the funeral is for chris' dad who passed away this weekend. as much as i am bitching about my bad day, he's had a bad 6 months or so. sister's house hit by lightning and totally burned down, rotten mean girlfriend who didn't have the sense to know he was actually too good for her, etc.... but he's gotten through it all and become stronger for it. so now he needs his friends to get through this difficult time.

seriously, i'd rather be chased by a sleestak then deal with today.